Today is the 3rd November 2008 . No doubt i've written the previous post in fright of how dear dear will react when he reads it, but i've told myself to be firm about saying how i felt . All i ask for ... is your trust . So that you need not worry when i go out with whoever friends . 

Anyway, Saturday came and dear dear came over to my place after he got dismissed from camp . Although he was a little late, but i get to see him again . Met up with Shirley girlfriend at CityHall, planning to get our tutorials done at the Esplanade Library but it was full, so we went over to Suntec Gloria Jeans instead . Ordered French Vanilla if i remembered it correctly and it smells nice . Reminds me of the Vanilla Ice Cream at Ritz Carlton . Finished audit tutorial and went to have dinner . A little shopping after that and took train to VivoCity to meet dear dear because he was having his friend's wedding dinner there . Caught Tropic Thunder midnight show at Cathay and over at his place for the night . Thought it was a funny show . 

Sunday came and dear dear gotta go to Jurong for his Class 4 license because the army is paying him to get it, so he sent me home in the afternoon, went for lessons and came over to my place to fetch me over to the airport . Airport duty ends and he fetched me home and went back to camp . 

First lesson of the week didn't seem to grab my attention, but i managed to force my eyes open and wrote some notes . 4 hours of break after first lecture of the week and i revised on my BTT . The trial test did helped a bit, but i was pissed off at not getting them all correct, can't be bothered too much too . IS lesson came and theory was same old boring facts, only did some follow up during ''practical'' . Class ended 4.30pm but my BTT was 5.40pm at BBDC, and Martin was having his practical lessons at 6.15pm too . So we strollled over and i had my test after my phone with dear dear . I must say i did it real carefully and i actually re-checked once . Results = PASSED . 

Called dear dear to tell him about the good news, but he wasn't feeling well . So coming over to my place tonight was cancelled . I told him to rest . He sounded weak . Did drills the entire day and running . I can't go in the camp to visit him either . And he said he didn't smoke much too, could even gather his energy to walk to his car and get some strepsils . It's like, i'm not happy about passing my BTT anymore . . . Dear dear, hang on . =/ . 

I felt useless . Tell me, what exactly should i do ? 

We can't make it on 090909, but we could make it on 20102010 .